Gossip Girl Lily’s breatheless

 

在 Gossip Girl 裏：

Man I love – Chuck Bass (nothing to do with him born loaded.)

Woman I love – Lily

 

這女人美麗得毫不費力，舉手投足間散發出來的驚人氣質讓我嘆爲觀止。可是她好可憐的呢。上半生的錯過是因爲母親與繼承人身份；後半生，竟是因爲經不起女兒的哀求。我該說她是偉大呢還是她不夠堅強 -- 即便是經理風浪后，之前錯過的，她還是再錯過了。

 

於是 Lily 妥協了，未婚夫公佈喜訊時，她想起了再與 Ruffus 見面時。她凍得全身僵硬，開口只說了幾句。

 

 

怎麽說呢……

看到這片段，我久久說不出話來。詮釋“什麽都說不出來”，“說什麽都不對”，沒有比這片段表達得更具體的了。

 

Here’s some write up by Jacob:

Early in the evening Bart toasts "the merging of two families," as Eric and Serena feel gross about life, Lily feels gross about accepting the proposal, and Chuck thinks about whatever it is that he thinks about. "To my lovely bride and our growing family."

At 90th and Fifth, just after six o'clock, Rufus will be waiting. He'll see Lily coming down the street, without her luggage, and his face will fall. She will be very beautiful as she comes closer, and the love and sadness in her eyes will make it pretty hard for him to say anything at all. Her eyes won't be glassy anymore, but they will shine. "Please, try to understand," she'll say, but he will. He already knew; he was pinned to that corner, afraid she'd come to her senses one more time. She will be sorry, and he will be sorry.

Lily takes a drink and smiles at Bart, and at her children, caught in the middle, and thinks about how much she likes Chuck, and how fond of Bart she is, and how families grow and blend and split apart. She thinks about hotels and husbands. "Mom looks about as happy as Grandma at last call," Eric cracks, awesomely, and Serena compares Lily's dead eyes to Bart's total lack of affect. Maybe it's catching. "I don't even know how she breathes with her blouse buttoned that high," says Serena, and it's true: she's buttoned all the way up to her glassy eyes. She has to be. She always had to be. You button up, and that's what being a grownup is about, and that's the thing Rufus won't ever quite understand. He knows how to play the guitar, and he knows how to walk from Brooklyn to the Palace in a henley, and he knows how to show you his heart, right out there in public, shivering in the cold, but he never figured out how to button up.